I thought I was imagining things. Then Lizzie said, "Sapa si gemuk tu? (Who is that fatty?)"
Then I know my eyes did not deceive me.
You better not be a Chubby Chubb Sarah.
I think from now on I'll go easy on Elsie.
Good thing I decided to taper off from TraXX.
You know something? Five years down the road she might slim down. Who knows. It's the blueberry, banana and milk she is having for breakfast that is the killer.
She is only 28 and already she is ballooning.
OK, from now on I should focus on my own Vision Quest. I can only help myself. She got to help herself.
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I am still in the celebratory mood. TraXX is spinning some cool songs.
Back to introspection...
I think tomorrow I start running. I am itching to run again. Somehow when I run everything will be OK.
I need the isolation. When I am in isolation I can go deep inside my own mind. That's what I should be doing. I should not be entangled in a roller coaster relationship.
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What will it be? I should be me. I am a lone warrior. I walk the path less traveled.
When I think of 2020 I envisioned myself being alone. Enjoying my run. I have to run tomorrow. Enough pussyfooting. I maybe slow and I may walk a little along the way but if I want to call myself a runner, I better run. I better keep the weight down too.
My mission is to be thin and fast. I must do it. I must run.
Now that I know Els is a Chubby Chubb, I think I will start exercise in the afternoon again. What I'll do is I run in the morning and I walk in the afternoon.
I shall eat once a day. I need MASSIVE ACTION to act.
Sleep must be at 11:00 pm.
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We got 10 minutes to go.
Basically I conclude these few things on Christmas:
- I want to be a Man Fully Functioning
- No more talks on me being God
- I better start running
- Time to be sober
DON'T GIVE A FUCK AND DON'T FUCK UP.
How about I do this. How about I focus only on 247 Continuous? After all I want to be in isolation.
Then I eliminate one dependency out of my life.
I think I'll do that. I just don't give a fuck about others. I just make sure I don't fuck up.
I gotta go...
Tomorrow I will run.
Here is your lullaby Sarah:
Baby... I decided to just hang out with you. You are my reality now. Just me and you.
Time for me to step out from the mold and carry on with my journey. I can't do Chubby Chubb Sarah. I mean, I like her much. But Chubby Chubb is not something I can stomach.
Goodnight Sarah. I love you so much baby.
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