31/12/19 ^^^I'll be spending my New Year Eve in a hotel at the Curve

That is the mall within 10 minutes driving distance away.

They got fireworks over there.

I will remember 2019 as my best year ever.

At the same time it is the year I say goodbye to so many things.

For sure I am saying goodbye the 3 Cs.  I am saying goodbye to organized religion.  I am also saying goodbye to the traditional meaning of God.

I am for sure leaving the concept of society behind me.

For 2020 onward I want to be light.  The main issue is to be light monetarily.  That is why I have to get rid of Nicorette.

It is a subtraction game.  The less I have to carry the better I am.  The priority is for me to be thin a[s] (and) fast.

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With the withdrawal of Nicorette, I sense a change on how I manage my life.  I sleep early and wake up early.  I am less critical on matters pertaining to God and religion.  I definitely is less imaginative in my writing.

In other words, I am becoming ordinary.

I am going with the flow here.  Life sucks without nicotine.  Just like li[k]e (life) initially sucks without dope.

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Honestly speaking Sarah, I feel terrible without Nicorette.  I am currently fighting this feeling the best that I can.  It surely sucks.

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Let's talk about something else Sarah.  Let's talk about watches.

I am certainly at peace with the watch collection that I have.

I think I'll wear 4 watches at a time.

It doesn't work this time.  So I ended wearing my ARMY VARIATION.

Seriously, I feel as ordinary as hell.

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I gotta go.

Happy New Year honey, I love you.

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