All these talks on God is really futile.
As I said, without the influence of nicotine I don't believe in God. Hence God is nothing more than 200% increase of dopamine in the brain due to nicotine.
Beyond that there is no evidence of God.
I like to believe I am God but due to the inconsistency of the Godly feeling due to the depletion of dopamine, I concluded that me being Godly is due to the dopamine surge particularly because of nicotine.
I'm sorry to disappoint you Sarah. But as it is I not a God as much as a fruit is not a tree. The best I can say is I strive to be a Man Fully Functioning.
I expected this to happen. If my illness was induced by dopamine, certainly my beliefs were also altered by the fluctuation of the neurotransmitters in my brain.
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Honestly I don't know about God. I however know that there is the Big I or the Big Mind. Is that God?
You know what? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. As far as I am concerned, I just flow with the Aiki + Do. Maybe you can decide for me Sarah. I however is shifting my focus towards something more relevant - the ability to be thin and fast.
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You know, it is very tempting to go back to nicotine and get that dose of dopamine. However the thing that holding me back is the thought that I will continue living a lie.
Now that I know the God Experience is nothing more than a chemical reaction, I like to at least close my 20 years of turbulence by saying that I am a subset of this form or force that we call God.
I know I am contradicting myself when I said that but the truth of the matter is I am tired of dealing with the God Question.
What I can say is I had done what I was asked to do. Therefore I will not carry any baggage with me in the next 22 years Fuck it if I am God. Also fuck it if I am a Man Fully Functioning. One thing for sure is I will hone my consciousness until I am certain of my destination. Along the way I will enjoy the first class seat by being me, the one and only Sharudin Jamal.
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