Sarah, let us assume that we are nobody special and we have no other purpose than the purpose we set for ourselves.
Isn't that much better than to think that we are somebody and the whole universe is evolving around us?
Certainly when I talk about simplification, I am also talking about simplifying my meta model. Being God is certainly a complex thinking. Therefore to make it as simple as possible, my universe is nothing more than my mind and my body. I cannot do away with either one. I need the body if I want to have a mind.
Surely we can have a mind without the body, but as you can see from my experience with Nicorette, it's the body that influence the mind.
Thus I need both for Mensana In Corpore Sano.
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When I think of the things I went through, I was indeed crazy. I was high from dopamine. That is why I have the God Complex.
When I looked back, I realized how crazy I was.
Then I said to myself, I rather be a sensible person that is me than a crazy person that is experiencing illusion of grandiose.
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Certainly I went through the motion without questioning the soundness of my thoughts. Well a crazy person will not realize he is crazy.
I would not have realized it either if not for the obvious change of perspective during and after I quit Nicorette.
Then I know that my body really influenced my thoughts,
Shit... I am at the mercy of the dopamine fluctuation. When my dopamine is normal, I don't have thoughts on God. In this case, God is the creation of my mind under the influence of the dopamine surge. Without it, my life is very ordinary.
I don't feel special and definitely I don't feel I am God. I do feel the need to strive my level best but certainly I am just another human being.
Therefore beginning from tonight, I will definitely accept that I am just another man. Nothing special about me. I will go through the four stages of life: Birth, Growth, Decline and Death. God knows what lies beyond death. I am no longer interested to find the answer.
My pursuit beginning 1/1/20 is to be the best I can be. I was let astray by SUBSTANCE ABUSE. I will not succumb for the same mistake all over again .
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I was contemplating to dismantle Al Araf 7:7 and tuck it away. Jibrail pleaded many time for me not to do that.
He said I was having a phase of my like. Once I come back to my senses I will accept that I am truly is God.
This is the part I don't like. I don't want to be God. And yet I am surrounded with things that make me feel that I am God.
When I remember my history with Al Araf 7:7, then I am back to believe I am God.
So rather than dwell on the whole argument all over again. I just accept that I am God and I am Not a God.
I am sleepy Sarah.
I better sleep.
As a parting thought, I say I am striving to be a Man Fully Functioning. Whether I am God or a subset of God is secondary. I need to live to the fullest of my potential.
Goodnight Sarah.
I am a bit groggy now.
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