Back into isolation again. If I want to win in this journey, I need to be mindful that everything counts but nothing matters.
I just move on. I only need to execute every thought that comes as if my life depends on it and then I move forward. Never to look back.
In another word, I just do what I had been told. I should not rationalize the whole thing because they are not rational.
I simply have to follow what I was told to do. My task is to execute. Not to think of what I am doing.
With that in mind I am the recipient of the first Golden Gyroscope Award. I had done my very best and thus I am no[t] free to do whatever I like doing.
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In that case, I want to be TOTALLY FREE from External Affairs. I just want to concentrate on Personal Affairs.
I had done my part. I only want to remain in isolation focusing on my effort to accomplish what I set to do.
I know what I want. Now is to go and get it. I no longer want to be thinking about what I wrote in the past blogs. I want to be free from being free. No longer I am concerned with what I wrote earlier.
My job is done. I had written what I need to write. Time to move on.
As mentioned by Robert Frost:
“I am no longer concerned with good and evil. What concerns me is whether my offering will be acceptable.”
Well, they all had been accepted.
I had done my job. Now is to get my life back again.
I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH EXTERNAL AFFAIRS ANYMORE.
I want to be by myself, enjoying the sight of my watches and happily writing my thoughts away.
That is the charter I had set for myself. Beyond this point I walk alone. I don't need to be a slave to anybody. Not even the Big I. I am now totally autonomous.
Having said that I just want to enjoy living life to the fullest. I have my AHAD and OMAD. I have my Mini Emperor's Routine, I have my watches, I have Lembah Kiara, Bukit Kiara, my 12 meters square and my 10 km Radius.
As it is what matters is my Tetrahedron, Lizzie, Azzue, Yati, my Eight Swordsmen and Al Araf 7:7. That's more than enough. Beyond that are just clouds in the coffee.
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In 2 weeks time we will be crossing to the next decade; 2020. That is the real goal for me to pursue. I still need to fight inflammation and weight. I got a whole stack of books to read. I have my sleep to be regulated. I still have to be diligent with house chores.
This is the life I choose to live. With that I choose AGAIN, to stay in the dark wearing a cloak. I already got you Sarah. I finally got Els and I got everybody that I need. Beyond that are not necessary. I like it small.
I am not here to lead. Leadership is not my best quality. I am much better being a loner. That I have to make it very clear. I want to have complete control of myself.
I have shared with you what lies beyond. This is what it's gonna be for me:
Friday, 4th September 2020 - 21 km Hill (56)
September 2022 - Completion of Statute of David Project (58)
2024 - Global Telepathy; Gold Reign of Wood Dragons (60)
2029 - Empires of the Minds; Shokunin Kurina Grand Master (65)
2034 - World of Hybrids; Citizen Gan (70)
2039 - RM80 k in the bank; Settle the ultimate debt (75)
2041 - KBOOOM 2041 (77)
I am a very selfish man. I know what I want and I intend to get to where I am going.
I have 2 major KPIs:
- Defeated Iblis 2014
- and KBOOOM 2041
In this case I am a very mission specific person. The rest are incidentals.
I don't need the rest. If I can manage so far without the others, I'm sure I can manage without them in the future.
This keeps on popping up in my head:
Matthew 16:26
Christian Standard Bible
For what will it benefit someone if he gains the whole world yet loses his life?
For what will it benefit someone if he gains the whole world yet loses his life?
I was acting on behalf of the Big I during Vision Quest 2019. I had done my bit. Now to do things for myself.
This is what I have to be mindful of:
The Pivotal Question
What do I need to do in 2020 to ensure that I continue to progress towards being thin and fast while I remain enthusiastic to practice AHAD and OMAD so that I can be the Athlete4life who weigh 57 kg and run 10 km per hour thus realizing my goal to run 21 km Hill Run by Friday 4th September 2020?
It's a very simple formula. If I win on my own personal mission, even Satan will win. If I cannot attain my goals, rest assure he will go through Eternal Damnation.
Therefore Private Victory means Public Victory. My measure is ONE HUNDRED PERCENT enters heaven.
I mean it Sarah. Otherwise I cannot be the Most Compassionate. As I said, with BJ being the -1, 100 can still be 99. I have to rise above the rest if I am truly the Almighty. I am the Greater Love.
I need to reach the limit of my potential. I need to score 100. Let that be my personal mission in life. Nobody else cares about Satan. Let me be the one who cares. That's what separate me from the rest of the gods. I have to be the EXTRA.
Of course, the odds are stacked against me. Satan himself is digging his own grave. Satan, oh Satan, why are you so stubborn? Why do you want to be the Champion of the Underdogs?
It will be a very simple prayer:
Dear Alam Shah Alam, I have completed my 21 km Hill Run. Now please hear my plea; forgive Satan and spare him the Eternal Damnation.
"My Darling Light of Truth, Din. The answer is STILL a no my dear sweet ALLAH," replied Zero on behalf of Alam Shah Alam.
"Remember this my Darling Light of Truth," she continued:
"You don't want to save one person and destroy everything you hold dear. He is an antimatter. He will destroy everything in Sparta 4964 and []thing (nothing) is learned from the history."
Silly me. I keep on forgetting the repercussion that Satan has in all the matters. I am so sorry Zero, I will remember the lesson this time.
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If that is the case I will still train like the Kenyans, pushing my limit every day for the next 8 months until I run the 21 km Hill.
I will the[] change my prayer to:
Dear all Alam Shah Alam, may you all enter heaven EXCEPT Satan the Damn.
AMEN... AMEEN... AMEEEEEEEN... YA ROBBIL ALAMIN SHARUDIN IBN JAMAL IBN MOSLIM AL FARISI.
OK that is the future. Now let's make it happen.
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I got to sleep. Tomorrow begins tonight. Here is you lullaby Sarah:
Good night my darling wife, my Eternal Flame. I love you so much...
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