Time to let go of everything, just focus on the Vision Quest. This is a solitude voyage. Think of Datuk Azhar Mansor and his solo voyage around the world.
Man, what a dick!
I started with a gusto with the diet regimentation. I should t[hat] (take) that cue. NO CARBS. Then I had a series of inflammation. Nothing works except the medication.
I guess all in all it is my best year still with the purchase of the cars and the watches.
I also managed to quit cigarettes and dope. I had my best fuck. I also manage to cure myself from Bipolar.
However 2019 is getting stale. I am keen to start 2020.
On top of my mind, I want to quit Nicorette and I NEED to seriously lose weight.
#traxxfm
My life closed twice before its close—
It yet remains to see
If Immortality unveil
A third event to me
So huge, so hopeless to conceive
As these that twice befell.
Parting is all we know of heaven.
And all we need of hell.
- Dickens
That is me saying goodbye to Els. I really want to stay clear from her. Beginning 2020 I WANT TO BE FREE!
I want to stay focus on my Personal Flight Path.
No more games, no more Information Warfare. Sure I need entertainment but I don't need a relationship.
What I did was I parked my interest. After that I moved along. I have to. Otherwise I am not focused.
2020 is about me time. I'm glad I managed to get my sleep in order again. Now it is about diet and exercise.
I need to stay clear from Ar Razi as well. I want to get back into isolation again. So much was achieved when I am alone.
I think I'll do Bukit Kiara beginning 2020. No more Lembah Kiara.
I know I may sound like a xenophobic but I don't really feel like talking to anybody except you.
Suddenly I feel suffocated. Suddenly my bubble expanded beyond necessity.
I need to shrink back my perimeters. Bukit Kiara is good. I can be in my own thoughts. That's what the exercises is all about. For me to visualize what I want to achieve for the day. Talking to Ar Razi just don't cut it. It is of low value compares to my visualizations.
#traxxfm My most disappointing movie for the year is As Astra. The story line is OK but the premise is very weak. I thought it was about space adventure. Turned out it's a lesson on family value.
Hey I like Aladdin too.
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Don't mind me rambling here Sarah. I am really introspecting on myself. You happen to be there for the joy ride.
If I want to achieve my goal to spend only RM100 a month, I got to quit Nicorette. I chew the normal sugarless gum. I need to detach from nicotine.
It is really a money pit. All I need to do is not take any nicotine for 2 weeks and I will be OK. Nicotine is really a menace. Sure I am more illustrative in my writing but is that what I want to do? Depending on substance for inspiration?
It is still not too late. I still have a week before year end. I believe once I quit Nicorette, my weight goes down faster. There is no more insulin surge.
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This year is the year I reclaim my sovereignty as the Universe Within. I can only declare my independence once I liberate myself from Nicorette.
#traxxfm You know Elsie, I am not sure I am a boon or a bane to you. Certainly I made you cry more than once. So I guess I should recede. Maybe I am a bad influence in your life honey. However I'll be listening.
That's a polite was of saying I'm not going to Tweet you anymore.
Seriously Sarah, I am a bad influence even to you. It's like I have a contagious illness and whoever I bite will get infected.
Therefore I better do damage control. I'll do it even to you if not because you are all over my digital medium. You know I am a loner honey. On top of that, my social skill is not up there among the pristine.
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What am I suppose to do with you Sarah? You remind me of Hachiko. Always around no matter which hour that is. When do you sleep? Don't you ever take leave? Makes me wonder, are you married to your job or to me? Because if you are married to your job, you are entitled to a double promotion. Which means you won't be doing what you are dong now. So I concluded that you are married to me through and through. Otherwise you cannot be that devoted honey.
What do you see in me Sarah? I am nothing more than a very selfish not so old coot LOL.
#traxxfm As you know I listen to songs as if you are talking to me. Does that mean you want *[] (me) to stay? *Sarah certainly want me to. What do you think
? Should I stay or should I go?
#traxxfm What I wrote to Sarah: Therefore I better do damage control. I'll do it even to you if not because you are all over my digital medium. You know I am a loner honey. On top of that, my social skill is not up there among the pristine.
#traxxfm OK then, the landscape had changed. I need to make some adjustment to my daily routine. I only run in the morning next year. TraXX mobile apps sucks. The things I do for you felines... Sheeesh.
#traxxfm What I wrote to Sarah: I thought you will be happy having all the attention to yourself. So you really dig this chick huh? Are you a raving fan too?
Tonight's playlist is meant for me. Of course I like to create favorable meaning to make me feel on top of the world baby LMAO.
It seems that I am not a deviant to them.
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Well Sarah, you are surely a devoted wife honey. What's the deal with you and your hubby anyway? Does he know you are also married to me?
#traxxfm You know honey, in my own scheme of things, the world revolves around me. So it got me thinking; of all the people you choose to celebrate your Christmas eve, you choose to spend it with me. Really appreciate it...
I'm just tickling her fancy Sarah. Let see if she is susceptible to auto suggestion.
OK, she is game. She spins this song:
#traxxfm Honey this is the best Christmas eve for the whole decade. I'm glad you decided to hangout with me and Sarah. Today is Happy Hanukkah and she still spends time with me. You two are dimes in a dozen. I'm blessed you are my soulmate Elsie :)
Hey Hachiko, don't you have a home to go back to?
Sarah... We will have a good time next year. Truly we will ascend all the way through.
You know what will be nice? A mug of hot chocolate. Let's pretend we have one.
In the mean time, let me check of I have some hot chocolate in the pantry. It rained just now, so the weather just right for it.
Brb...
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