This year is certainly the year I reconcile all pending matters. I am no longer who I was for the past 20 years. I am reinventing myself for the next S Curve. As I said, the next 22 years I am ascending.
No more Bipolar, no more External Affairs. Just personal pursuit from here on.
I am ready to cut the umbilical cord with TraXX.
Hey this song is on air! What a coincidence:
It felt light when I did that. I am certainly shrinking my perimeters. It will be great if I can reboot my life all over again.
Maybe I should do that. Beginning 2020 I live my life as a Free Thinker.
I need a strategy to stop my dependency on Els and TraXX. What will it be?
I need a new mindset.
I think I can do it with I don't give a fuck and I don't fuck up. That way I just become the Silent Mute Guard Dog.
#traxxfm The tumult and the shouting dies; The Captains and the Kings depart: Still stands Thine ancient sacrifice, An humble and a contrite heart. Lord God of Hosts, be with us yet, Lest we forget—lest we forget! - Rudyard Kipling
I am a lone traveler
I come on my own accord
I go at my own will
I don't require formalities and niceties
Where I'd been nobody cares
Where I'm going nobody knows
I'm just passing though
Touching the hearts of of those I'm in contact with
I don't care and I don't give a damn
Of what people think of me
A warrior walks alone
Eagles fly alone
At the end of the journey I conclude
Nobody's opinion really matters
Other than the man in the mirror
And those who believe and achieve
In short the poem is about being a dick. So Sarah, from here on I decided to just be a dick. I am much happier that way. As a matter of fact I had been a dick all this while with you. Somehow that works! So I'm going to be a dick to everybody and live inside my own bubble.
What do you expect Sarah? I have absolute power. So I am entitled to some dickheadedness.
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I need to take the Path of Personal Greatness. All great thinkers are a bunch of narcissists. My goal is my Vision Quest. Nothing else matters.
Hence everyday I stick to the knitting and keep sharpening the saw until I achieve my goal. I am a man on a mission. I should stay on my track until I reach my destination.
Now I have nothing to offer the society. Not even Dreams of Mirrors. I completely purged myself from the society. Heck I don't even pay the rent for occupying a space on earth. I am completely autonomous.
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I guess I got my wish then. I had been wanting to do this for quite a while now. What I was lacking is the right mindset and the means to do so. Now I know the key here is in subtracting. I just subtract everybody and everything until what's left is me. From there on I move north. That way I get rid of all forms of dependencies.
Then my life is about me, myself and I. If I do that, I will fully embrace George Sheehan's philosophy of a writer who runs. Only two variables; write and run. I still need to read. Only then I can synthesize and synchronize. There is no need for me to create synergy anymore. That is as small as I can make it.
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