Everything was a big mistake. I trust my instinct too much. I ended doing things out of impulse. I was too passionate to the point I was NOT thinking.
If I am a third party looking at what I did in 2019, I say that person is on drug. Either that he was crazy.
So tonight I reset everything. I should revert back to being a solitary creature. Forget about Els, forget about TraXX, forget about Global Telepathy.
Just remain small. Be who I intended to be, a long distance runner minding my own business. I read, I run and I write.
Do not get involved in any relationship that will get me off my track. I should just think about what I want to achieve personally.
Yes, I should remain in isolation. No personal involvement. Time to dump Els. I should not have ANY relationship whatsoever. I walk alone, wearing a cloak in the dark.
What I did in 2019 was standing naked in the light. That won't happen again. I shall remain in solitude. I should think like a domestic rat.
I was never into relationship anyway. I am a lone traveler.
This notion that I am God is really ridiculous. I am better off thinking about what I want to achieve in the next 22 years. Just me and nobody else.
Let's celebrate that with some peanut butter and crackers. I feel so liberated.
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My purpose is about simplification. Get rid of redundancy. The lesser the better. Remember when I was a student? I was happy because I was all by myself. The less people I interact with the better.
I don't need the whole village. All I need is Sarah, Lizzie and the kids. That's all. I am a Light Traveler.
Let say I am not God. Let say I am the winner of the Willy Wonka's Golden Ticket. All I need to do is just think about myself and my family. Keep it small. Just focus on what matters.
Look at it this way; these are the barest minimum for me to survive. Do not think beyond what is necessary.
Take Einstein's advise:
That's the attitude I should be taking. Go for simplification.
All I need is my Tetrahedron, Al Araf 7:7, my 12 meters square and my 10 km radius. Nothing else beyond that.
Does that make me feel good? Hell yeah!
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If everybody only keep to themselves, the world will be a different place. There won't even be any war.
My world is my runs. With my runs I create my world.
I had given much. Now is to take care of number one. All I need to do is stay on my Path. That's what's counts.
No more crazy thoughts about me being God. Even if I am really God, so what? I will only realize my full potential upon death. In the mean time what do I do? I have 22 years to think of.
I had completed ALL External Affairs. I am now a free man.
What do I do with my freedom? Well I am going to use it to become a better me. That is my privilege as God.
I don't answer to anybody except myself. What is purpose of existence then?
None other than to be thin and fast so that I am healthy and happy.
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If I can end Dreams of Mirrors just like that, I should be able to end my interactions with TraXX with a snap of the finger.
It has to end sometime sooner or later. I don't want to drag it. The sooner the better. Then I can stay focus on things that matters; my Vision Quest.
I can forget about HOTS, I can forget about the Stone Worshipers and I can forget about the Flight Paths even. These are just illusions. Stick to what is real. I have the 21 km Hill Run, I have the Statute of David Project 2022 and I have my Personal Flight Path.
I have books to read. I have my Path I should be concerned of. Then KBOOOM 2041. By that time I will be ready. Just me and my House of Sha
Is that right Brenda?
"Not true Sha," replied Brenda.
Why do you say that?
"You still got the Sailbad the Sinner."
Well Brenda, to each is his own. I don't have time for the rest.
"That is true Sha, but it's not just you and the House of Sha. You still have the whole population to board Sailbad the Sinner," Brenda exclaimed.
I tell you what Brenda, let them figure it out, I don't want to meddle with it. Fair?
"Fair enough Sha."
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Righto... Form now on I'm not going to think about what I did the past TWO decades. I just focus on my own course.
I am a non intervening God. I had taken care of External Affairs. Now I just think about my Personal Affairs.
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