Today the nicotine withdrawal hit me. I feel a slight panic and a certain void in my life.
I have to stay on course. Nicotine addiction stays in this decade. Definitely I need to have a different perspective altogether.
This is me finally saying goodbye to nicotine. Good thing I don't meet anybody smoking cigarette. If I can go on like this until Ramadan, that will be great.
As I mentioned many times, it's about simplification. Nothing is simpler that to just think about myself only. That is as simple as I can get.
I don't think beyond me being a Man Fully Functioning.
That means I keep my world really small. Just me. That's it. Not even the Tetrahedron and Al Araf 7:7. I just live in complete isolation. Focusing about being thin and fast.
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I can take the stand that ALL that I had gathered for the past 40 years are crap and I am ready to start fresh.
Where do I begin? By eliminating everything that is not relevant of me being thin and fast.
That includes the notion I am God. Not relevant at all whatsoever.
So as it is, my priority is sound mind and sound body.
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In the end, I was just wasting my time on issues that [] (doesn't) concern me. All those talks are a bunch of nonsense. I was marking time wasting away my cash.
Well, my cash is my time. I can do whatever I like with my time. However I should be mindful that the only time that counts is the time I spend on my personal well-being.
So beginning January 2020, my focus is ONLY on personal development.
This talk about being God and everything is nice on the ego but it's not really taking me anywhere.
I need to take ACTION more than anything else.
I may be God. However as God, I am only concern with my Personal Flight Path. Nothing else matters. I keep my world small.
So I might not be be God at all. I just might be another man happy to be doing his own thing.
Sounds like it except that Nothing is Everything and Everything is Nothing. In that case I had fulfilled my obligations and thus I set my own journey forward.
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Now that I am free from the influence of nicotine, I can say all those talks I had were talks under the influence of substance. Without substance to influence my thoughts, I say I am as ordinary as I can be.
Heck, I don't even want to think about God. Let alone thinking that I am God. As it is now, I am happy if I can be a Man Fully Functioning. Maybe if I achieve that, than I will be the God to my Universe Within. That's as far as I will go.
I don't know about you guys but as far as I am concerned, I am going microscopic. You all decide your own paths. I had discovered who I am, what is my purpose and where I am going. It doesn't concern others. Not even my Tetrahedron. I am charting my own route. If I make it then the rest will surely make it. If I don't make it, some of you still make it without me.
So I might as well stay on my Personal Flight Path than to think about the human civilization at large.
As you can see, I am already in my White Space. This is prevalent with the quality of my Lucid Dreams that I had been having in these past few days.
I may be God but I am only answerable to me. I'm not interested to carry the burden of humanity on my back.
So far what I recorded was my own journey towards enlightenment. I am not here to save the entire planet. My mission is KBOOOM 2041. Until then I want to SEIZE THE DAY for myself. Not even for my family.
So what does that tell you about God? Well, God doesn't give a fuck because He is God. So if you give a fuck then you take care of your own line. If everybody take care of his or her own line, then eventually we will have [] (those) who are aligned towards Man Fully Functioning. That means each person is self-directed towards becoming his/her very best.
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We got to fight our own battles. Each battle is unique to a specific universe. Nevertheless EACH of us has our personal battle to fight for, We are our own worst enemies. Nobody can say they won the ultimate battle until they won the battle over themselves.
That's where I am going. I am [] (not) interested to save anybody. I had passed my verdicts. Now go for Private Victory. My personal battle is until September 2022. Only after I win my own battle will I fight for others. Then again I might not do it because that is my prerogative as God.
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