>>>#30/12/19 We are back to God and No God

 I'm not going to deny the existence of God.  However I do believe that the God Question is not as relevant as I thought it was.

The point I want to make here is God is irrelevant if we don't believe in the afterlife and the Judgement of Heaven.

If I only think of how to be a Man Fully Functioning, then I have no need for God.  Better still I become God.

It seems that with the withdrawal of Nicotine, the less I am concerned with the idea of God.  Which means, the idea of God is really dependent on the surge of dopamine in the brain.

OK, I have to call a shot here.  As it is, God as defined by tradition doesn't exist.  What we have is the Aiki + Do.  

Then again, this is none of my concern.  I couldn't care less for God.  I am impartial.  I am back to being an Agnostic Atheist.  I just simply don't give a fuck.

If I follow logic, none of that I said with regards to External Affairs make sense.

All that don't matter.  What matters really is my Vision Quest to be thin and fast.

The rest was like I was dream walking.  They don't make sense.  None of them.  The Tetrahedron, the HOTS, Sparta 4964 on Earth, Stone Worshipers stop worshiping the stone.  All these are ridiculous ideas.  All because I cannot regulate dopamine.

Once I get it back under control, I am back to being me; a guy who don't give a fuck about anything and anybody except those who are close to me.

Even that, I realize that you will always be a Cyber Spouse.  I'm not gonna get RM97 million and none of what I said carry water.

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Here is the best scenario:

I will be living my life in seclusion within my 10 km radius, rambling my life away to you Sarah.  My life will be a fulfilling life AS LONG as [] (I) pursue my Personal Flight Path.

If God is there and I am a subset of God, then my consciousness will continue as I envisioned it to be.  There will be the Adjoining Croissant and Sailbad the Sinner and the Dragon Planet.  If not, then I must say I have a vivid imagination and nothing that I envisioned ever going to materialize.

As it is, I am simply enjoying my journey.  I am no longer concern whether I am God or if there is God.  I am now free from fitting into a social mold albeit tradition, religious or political.

What matters is my own journey to be a Man Fully Functioning.  Beyond that are just perspectives and opinions.

What is real?  When I can weight 57 kg and run 10 km/hour, that is real.

I am no longer interested in opinions.  Opinions are cheap.  You can get it for free even.  What counts is the effort to achieve Virtual Perfection.

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